I believe that in order to get through the grief you have to ride the waves as such as face the crashing waves along with the calm. You don't have a choice. You simply have to keep going, riding that never ending emotional rollercoaster and facing what each day brings. Depending on how you are feeling, depends on how you can deal with a situation, sometimes more clear headed and other times with more anger and pain.
I still question why the f*** did this have to happen and think it is terrible. I don't think I can accept that 'she just wasn't meant to be'....I actually despise that comment, it hurts and only a person who has NOT been through this could actually say this.
As September draws closer the constant reminder is there that my baby would have been turning one year old and I would have been planning a pretty, pink party with everything all special and sweet! Other girls that I know of that have babies that are turning one in September are in the planning process of the first birthday.
I only wish that was me.